August 5, 2009
Lost my sweet aunt yesterday. In the past two years I lost my mom, sister and now my aunt who was like a second mom to me. I have grieved so much for these losses and for my son and brother who both are addicts, that I find it hard to cry anymore? Just for now I am sure, but for two years I have been a flood gate of tears, allowing myself to greive. I am so tired of greiving and the lack of luster in my own life. I am trying to claim some life and fun for myself and my husband. Made plans for this Friday to go see a comedian, maybe I can express my emotions through laughter for a change?