April 7, 2010
Battlefield, Retreat, Surrender
It seems I always used to love to go into the battlefield. Anytime there were arguments, problems, upsets, I ran onto the battlefield to the rescue. Now it seems I retreat mostly, but sometimes show up for the battle, getting up in the fight, armed and ready, even if it is not the best thing for me or the people I am fighting for/against. What a confusing place this puts others around me in. They never know if I am in the fight or if I have retreated. What I really want to do is surrender, pick a side and stay on it. I don't want to be on the battlefield anymore, I want to throw up the white flag and surrender it all. I am working on it and really need to get on the side I want to be on, peace and serenity.