November 19, 2009
So much for the silence!
I am at work so I will try to keep this post short, but I have to get this off my chest. My son met my husband at work this morning and he took him out to our house. He is trying to get into the dentist along with my brother as they both have a rotten tooth. Anyways, my husband had to go back into town for some stuff and when he returned home my son was sleeping (passed out). My son had asked my brother to wake him as he had a college class at 9:30 am, brother tried to no avail. I spoke with my husband and he informed me of all of this. I told him to wake my son and tell him he needs to go into town, to school late or somewhere else. My husband tried to wake him but as usual when he is high he is passed out, rude when awoken and just a complete ass. So I spoke with my husband again a few minutes ago, the dentist got my brother in and will see my son tomorrow (my husband has a friend in the low-income dentist office who helped out with this). I know probably enabling on the dentist thing but we believe both of them have ab absessed tooth. I told my husband to wake my son again, tell him he has 1/2 hour to get ready and take him to town...period. He has been staying with friends for the past 3 weeks and not living in our home. He is slowly failing at college and still has no job or real efforts to find one (couple of days he put in good job hunts, out of three weeks). I am fed up. I am too angry to even deal with him right now. I will say as little as possible and try to not sound too much like a bitch to him when I do talk to him. But I can't live with him anymore. He always figures it out when he feels like it, so he will just have to figure it out. I hate this so much, this bitter angry feeling. At first you are just heartbroken (still am), but then that bitterness and anger set in and it is so hard for me to move through that part. The real issue is he is not seeking any kind of treatment and the Drug classes he does attend are only because of probation. This has been going on so long now, and I know it could go on for years or he could die from his opiate addiction. I don't bother to ask why anymore and I am trying hard to give it to God. My counselor is still off until January and I haven't been to a meeting in a while. There isn't one in my area until Monday. I hope I can keep myself in check that long. UGH!!!