June 3, 2010
Anyways, my counselor told me basically it wasn't rocket science and when I caught myself thinking obsessively, then to distract with any number of the tools I have learned. So then I go off to the family meeting and share my frustration at how crazy I feel and how hard it is to stop the stupid thoughts. A woman at the meeting who is a recovering addict said several things that made since to me. She is a tough woman who has four years clean and likes to tell it like it is. She said when I am thinking uncontrolably, to not only give it to my higher power but to realize they are just thoughts and go to the mirror, look at myself and say "you're fired". I LOVE this, it just says it all. I am fired, I suck at being the boss and need to let the true boss, God, take over (not that I was ever truly in control).
I hope I am not rambling too much but I was just super excited by this little gem and had to share, hope it helps someone else out there with "stinking thinking".