Today was my husband's birthday. I made him a carrot cake with creme cheese frosting from scratch (turned out yummy). We all ended up going to an old favorite steak house of the family. Since my son lives in the town where this restaurant is located he agreed to get there early and get us a table, which worked out nice. Everyone got along at the dinner and much laughter was had by all. Our boys seemed to find some peace and that made our evening very special.
My son shared a few things with me at dinner that were pretty private. He went today to get tested for AIDS, Hep. C, etc. He seemed a bit concerned. I did ask him "well you never shot up did you:?" He has always told me he never had, nor would. Tonight he shared he had, said only a few times, but that probably means one too many times for my little ol heart to be comfortable with. I didn't respond much and he also indicated he is currently on suboxone. He has been attending many meetings and does have a sponsor and is working on step one. He is living in a sober living house. So the needle and suboxone things took me off guard. He stated that the doctor who prescribes the suboxone is all for family support and will meet with any interested family at any time to explain the drug and answer any fears. I know quite a bit about suboxone but told my son I thought that would be a great idea and lets set that up. He was calm, polite, funny and seemed happier and healthier than he has in quite some time. To be truthful with all of you, even though I let him speak, offered the kind "hmm", or that's good type of response, I am scared about the needles and the suboxone, but I know there is nothing I can do but continue to give him over to HIS higher power and let go, live in the present and enjoy the many blessings of today.