I will make this post short as I am at work. My son now has two jobs, the one at Jack in the Box and another full time job in the daytime putting up awnings for patios. He is working seven days a week from 8-4 p.m. and will maybe work a couple of evenings at the other place. He is also playing softball for an NA team on Friday nights, so this is all positive but does not leave a lot of time for his program and he is still pretty fresh.
I picked him up for a BBQ we had for Father's Day yesterday. He has a "girlfriend" who also recently went through the same rehab he did but is now living in a woman's sober living house. It smells like trouble to me and I overheard him talking to his sponsor in the car, sounds like he is discouraging it, but Z isn't having it. She seems nice but has many heavy issues and her drug of choice is the same as Z's. He also seemed a bit "off" last night, like he was high. I am not sure if Suboxone can make someone seem high or not. I am supposed to talk to the doctor/nurse that is supplying him with it so they can clear up some questions for me. I tried to bite my tongue and did a pretty good job of it. The girl came with him to dinner and it all went well, he was just off at the end of the night.
It makes me a bit nervous, but I will just continue to pray and let go, pray, and let go......Not my business, keep my own side of the street clean. Stay out of his way, so he can live out his journey in God's will and time, not mine. Whew, hard sometimes, but I am getting better at taking care of me.
Just felt I had to get this out. Hope everyone is doing well, I have been reading and posting comments often. Going to a meeting tonight and family group on Wednesday, sponsor call on Tuesday, hoping to start my first step.