August 3, 2010

Waiting Works

Just a quick note to say Hi and share something I went through today.  I have been missing my son and haven't heard from him in about five days.  He is still living in the town about 30 minutes from us, states he is working, still on Suboxone as he can afford it and hanging with the girlfriend from rehab.  Although I know he has relapsed on a few days I have seen him, I know he also has his good days....his business, his recovery. 

Anyways, today I was missing him, wondering about how he is doing and just wanting to hear his voice, but struggling with whether I should "dial for pain".  I held off, read some blogs and comments, prayed and prayed and focused on my work.  A few minutes later, I received a text message from him with a super cute picture of him and his girlfriend.  It touched me that God had sent me something to relived my mind to some degree.  I texted him that it was a nice picture and that he looked happy and went on with my day.

He just called me and we had the best 20 minute conversation of our lives.  Nothing negative, all positive and all about what we were up to individually, nothing about his addiction.  It was fantastic and I feel so happy just from that little bit of wonderful conversation with my son. 

Sometimes if we sit back and wait, wait it out when we aren't sure what to do, and pray, things have a way of just coming to us and working out. 

Reading and commenting when I can, miss you all! 

Renee

20 comments:

Tori said...

How wonderful that you shared such a nice converstaion with him. I know that horrible feeling of missing your child. So happy for you.
Hugs

Annette said...

Awwww,I'm so happy for you. One really great conversation can carry us mommas for quite awhile! It takes so much determination and courage to not dial that phone when you are wanting to. I used to catch myself walking around with my phone in my hand, looking at it every few minutes, trying desperately to NOT call. lol Those were very tiring days. So glad to hear from you!!

Dad and Mom said...

I glad you talked.

Heather's Mom said...

What a great post! I love hearing happy news! So glad you heard from him and had a good conversation :)
Love when you pop in for a post :)
God bless.

LisaC said...

I'm so glad that you waited it out and received a great message from your son. Awesome! You are in my thoughts and my prayers.

Addiction--Mom trying to Detach with Love said...

Thanks you guys for stopping in to visit me and for all the support!

Carolyn said...

It's so wonderful that you not only had a great talk with your son but you also received confirmation of God's love for you :)
Thank for sharing

Carolyn
PS- open ID isn't working for some reason so i have to sign in with my other blog acccount. sorry

jackandaisy said...

hi renee,

God, i love this post. see what happens when we don't try to fix others and ourselves. good stuff happens! i draw strength from this, thank you.

daisy

Syd said...

I am glad for you Renee. I think that if I don't feel a lot of urgency and obsession, back off and let the other person be responsible, then God can work the miracle.

ChaiLatte said...

Awww, what a great post, Renee! I'm smiling for the joy you felt hearing from your son!

Bristolvol said...

Good for you, Renee. I totally believe that God has not led my daughter back to me is because I would not be able to endure the pain because there is no sign of recovery on her part. I am happy for you that you are able to have had a positive encounter with your son. I know how much that means to us parents.

Kristin said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes. You so deserved the beauty that came your way.
Thank you for sharing it with us,
xx kris

Erin said...

Well, that made me smile, so happy for you.

VJ said...

I loved your post. it gives me such hope. Thank you for sharing this.

Barbara said...

RENEE! This is awesome. It made me feel so good to read it. I hope this was the first of many "best conversations ever"! You are a strong amazing woman and by not dialing that phone you got the joy of picking it up instead!

onepillaway said...

Awesome news! So very happy for you and for your son. I believe God does answer prayers. He has answered a couple of mine recently. It's such an incredible feeling!

Peggy said...

Renee - what a good reminder, to wait and let things unfold on their own. I love that phrase, "Dialing For Pain". Often my worst fears are in my head. I automatically jump to the worst case scenario and then feel foolish when I've over reacted. These AA slogans come to mind: Easy Does It, Just For Today, Keep it Simple, Think, and Let Go and Let God. Thanks again for the wisdom to sit and wait, and just be. Peggy

Her Big Sad said...

Love it, love it! I'm so glad you had the chance to have that conversation wtih him. Prayers continue!

Cheri said...

Hi Renee,

I'm so happy that you had a wonderful conversation with your son and that you are encouraged! Know that you are both in our prayers.

Sorry to have been so long AWOL, but I finally got the book sent to the publisher last week.

Blessings and hugs,
Cheri

Tina said...

Your post gives me hope. I am a mom trying to detach with love. It's a new process for me and I didn't realize how sick you become as well as your addict.

Thank You
Tina